> I am cursed with a low IQ, with a low everything. I have lost all hope in myself.
Not a low everything, we are an accumulation of our experiences (both good and bad), what you choose to do with that is up to you. If you are able to recognize your shortcomings you're already better off than 90% of people.
Everyone has their shortcomings, confidence isn't an ignorance of those shortcomings (that's ego) it's joyful acceptance of them in a persistent manner.
I'm not an intelligent person by any means but I am a persistent one. I failed Spanish twice in high school but persisted and got it the third time with a C, in college I failed pre-calc, differential equations, and linear algebra all at least once but continued and eventually passed. For my first Internship I applied to over 180 different companies, only three gave me interviews, the last of which gave me an offer. The first 9 women I asked out said no, after that it got to be around a 50-50 shot as to whether they'd say yes.
Even if you fail at doing the same thing 99% of the time, if you try enough you can get your desired outcome. The thing about failing is that the better you are at it, and the more you do it, the quicker you'll find a way out.
If you legitimately believe that a "low IQ" is holding you back, you are wrong. You can blame the world or people around you all you want, and it might even be true, but at the end of the day the only person out there to improve your circumstances is yourself.
But you see, you still got that college degree that led you into bigger things in life, you overcame. At 18, I genuinely thought I shall overcome too, but it did not happen, and now I am at where I am at.
I am glad you did though, and I wish you the best.
The point is that I continued fighting for that degree regardless of how many failures I had in the past. I genuinely believe that if you continued, even now, to learn these subjects (even without formal education) you can do great things.
I challenge you to three months of relentless self education. Instead of watching YouTube or browsing socials in your spare time but some very basic projects on your plate then move from there to larger ones.
After this I learned Python and some data science stuffs, got into Flask (which allows for website backends via REST) and MongoDB (database).
If you genuinely apply yourself to learn this kind of stuff and feel confident in you capabilities, I know you can apply it in a way that at the very least will help you feel a bit more fulfilled in your skillset.
Not a low everything, we are an accumulation of our experiences (both good and bad), what you choose to do with that is up to you. If you are able to recognize your shortcomings you're already better off than 90% of people.
Everyone has their shortcomings, confidence isn't an ignorance of those shortcomings (that's ego) it's joyful acceptance of them in a persistent manner.
I'm not an intelligent person by any means but I am a persistent one. I failed Spanish twice in high school but persisted and got it the third time with a C, in college I failed pre-calc, differential equations, and linear algebra all at least once but continued and eventually passed. For my first Internship I applied to over 180 different companies, only three gave me interviews, the last of which gave me an offer. The first 9 women I asked out said no, after that it got to be around a 50-50 shot as to whether they'd say yes.
Even if you fail at doing the same thing 99% of the time, if you try enough you can get your desired outcome. The thing about failing is that the better you are at it, and the more you do it, the quicker you'll find a way out.
If you legitimately believe that a "low IQ" is holding you back, you are wrong. You can blame the world or people around you all you want, and it might even be true, but at the end of the day the only person out there to improve your circumstances is yourself.