No, I do not expect anyone on HN to take me out of it, I made this post from a moment of weakness. I'm already been getting professional help on this (psychologist) and if I make more money, I'm willing to even pay for it. I am very thankful to all the replies, they have been insightful, and they're helping me cope with my problems.

I am sad to hear that there are more people like me in this state, and I'd be willing to reach out so that maybe we could help each other in our... Collective misery. I hate seeing others struggle.

Fair.

I can only relate cause I've been through some kind of therapy in the past, but the reasons might be completely different to yours. Just know that no professional will solve your problems, and you might not even really need one you know.

Good luck mate, life is tough.

Yeah, psychologists are hit and miss honestly. I hope you're better off now after therapy.

Best wishes to you too.